Please read my previous post if you'd like to learn more about me.
I'm a true believe in you are what you eat! This statement couldn't be more true in my case anyway. Not only am I struggling with all the things I previously posted about, (migraines, fibromyalgia, sinus, depression, etc, etc, etc! I really could go on and on! Not fun!) , I now have a bleeding ulcer. If I don't take care of myself now, it really could get life threatening. My father-in-law almost died from one and it really could end up being a serious thing. It was caused by all the medication I take for the above listed. If the illnesses before weren't enough of an indicator to change my lifestyle, this one needs to be! I will be doing the candida cleanse with Lynette. We have done it together in the past and I was starting to feel a lot better. Why oh why did I let myself get bad again! It truly has to be a lifestyle change for me. It can't just be a diet. If I want to have a good quality of life or any life at all, I need to change.
I'm so grateful to Lynette for introducing me to the 'my feel good foods' program. I know that we were meant to be friends right now to help each other through this. I haven't met anyone before that understands how I feel, like she does. It really helps knowing she understands but then breaks my heart at the same time. I'm grateful for this blog and the opportunity for all of us to support each other through our own individual trials. I know we all have different goals but we all have the same wants and needs. I was telling Lynette the other day about how awful and guilty I feel for knowing that the spirit led me to this program and I'm not doing it. I don't know how many hours I've spent praying for answers and help to understand what I need to do to get better. Or where to go. Or who to turn to. But I do know what to do and I'm not doing it. I'm choosing not to do it because I'm too busy or I'm not feeling well enough to care. It makes me sick to think of all the time I've wasted being sick, when I have the power to change things and make it better. It's really in my control. I don't know if food will fully cure me but I do know that it will make me feel 100% better than I do right now. I'm ready to start! I'm ready to feel well. You know what's sad, I really don't remember how it feels to really feel good. I've spent half my life feeling like crap! Well it starts now! I'm ready and 100% committed to feel better.
I loved Claudine's goal to work on loving herself. This is going to be my first goal as well. I think I will try harder to work on my other goals if I truly learn to love myself. This is something I've always had a hard time with. I've always cared more about my family's happiness and well being over my own. This of course isn't always a bad thing, I just forget to take care of myself in the process. I know this will be a hard thing for me to do but I'm going to start putting myself back at the top of my list. I will be a better mom, wife, friend, etc. when I'm healthier! I need to remember this. My next goal is changing the food choices I make. I'm going to customize the 'my feel good foods' program to work better this time around. I will still be following the program pretty closely but I'm going to allow myself an occasional treat. I know that I failed before because I was so extremely strict, I would fall off the wagon, so to speak and then it would be too hard to go back on again. I think allowing myself a little something now and then, will help me follow through better. I will go more into detail as I figure it out. I would really like to add in some kind of an exercise program but to be more realistic, my goal is to just add some kind of movement each day. I've had so many migraine filled days, that my house usually goes unattended. So if my movement just involves cleaning one bathroom, that's good enough for me. Then as time goes on, I will add more. My other goals involve spiritual growth: more personal study, family study, etc. More individual time with each of my children. More quality time with Brad, meaning not on my cell when cuddling, etc. LOL! I'd also like to serve at least one person daily. So many times, I'm so involved with not feeling well, I forget that there are others out there that I could help or that I could make a difference in their day. I have so many more goals in mind but I need to be realistic with myself. I know that if I make too many goals at once, none of them will happen.
I love this Christy! Like you said "This is our year!" And we will and can do hard things and some days they most certainly will be harder than others, I have to keep remind myself of this. As long as we keep trying and do our best that is enough! Love you!
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